There was a peculiar silence, after what seemed like eternity. There were people around a mile away from the bark I sat on, their lips moving but their words turning into soft whispers as they floated upon the breeze. The bark lay among a thick cluster of grass at the top of the hill, its heavy weight pushing it into the mud. I stared at a dragonfly in a pool of dirty water formed within a depression in the bark, dipping and struggling to fly as its wet wings held it back. A drop of cold water trickled down my neck, diverting my attention towards the gray sky. It was raining.... You could hear the patter of rain, as it touched the crumpled autumn leaves scattered around, slipping down glistening blades of grass. It wasn’t like the sound of rain water hitting against glass window panes or a heavy pour gushing down metallic streets, but a scuffled patter, that slowly crawls into your soul.

I was far away from the world, but mortality of the moment made my thoughts wander around stepping back into it. I have come along way, but there’s a longer way to go. No matter what storms have shaken this forest, there has always been someone to turn to. However it is soon going to be time to step out of my bubble. I won’t say I’m one of those who have been completely cut off from the real world, complacent and snug in my sanctuary. But I haven’t been more than a distant observer, who can see and feel, yet with only my voice to speak for me... Will I be able to wake up one day, make coffee for myself, put on a warm overcoat and walk down that aisle, wading through the snow with a huge pile of books in my hand? ....I wonder who ‘he’ would be. Do I know him? Am I yet to meet him? Does he like the smell of moist mud when it rains?....

Some things just unfold with time. I’m a dreamer ahan, but not one to sit in waiting, longing for my destiny to reveal itself. The beauty of the dark sky lies in it's enigma... It’s a short life, and I want to taste every moment to its fullest.

The dragon fly made its way to the edge, throwing its wings over a mushroom, sprouting from within the pool of water, pulling itself up. It seemed to be resting after the long strenuous journey, watching the raindrops sparkle as they united with the water forming crystals on the surface. It's gonna fly. I know it still can. It's just the wings..they're drenched. It'll stop raining...soon...

Teenie Twenie

*WOW* ....that’s the only thing that comes to my mind right now.

The last two days were just amazing...

I thought I’d be extremely excited to be all grown up at twenty, but for some reason, as the time approached there was there creeping mellow sinking feeling.... Somehow the digit 2 in the 20 has this scary feel to it. The feeling of knowing the next few years is the time your are to take some of the most important paths of your life somehow makes your knees quiver...for along with the thrill of the unknown, there is this sense of chilling anxiety. But this isn’t Neverland....and everyone has to grow up.

I couldn’t think of the best way to leave my teenage years behind. Kept thinking of what I’ll do to mark my last teenage day, but then just thought it better to forget about it. Sometimes thinking and planning just spoils it all, more often when there is no right way known.

At times what you can’t think of just comes to you its self. I spent my last teenage day with those two people who I’ve shared some of the greatest moments of my life. Those two people, who I’ve practically grown up with, walked through the sunny and rainy days without umbrellas, those two people who I can trust with my eyes closed. It was just a blast! From the magical drive, crazy talking sessions over coffee, nostalgic fumes, future resolutions, that laugh shared to the shoulder offered. Thanx guys, I had a great time. Love you! Ayesha and Aminah :)

Not a bad transition you’d think, but that wasn’t the end of it. The 2nd was just awesome. I had just woken up and walked out of my room to be greeted by a laryngitis stricken Ayesha yelling Happy Birthday! I was rushed back into the room to change and driven off within ten minutes. The final landing spot was masooms, after a series of most outrageous yet surprisingly effective lies, visits to salons, phone calls, messages I was made to type, and God knows what. As soon as I entered I saw two tables hogged by my most favourite people....the most amazing family and friends anyone could ask for. I was in state of shock, as a illion things rushed through my mind and a huge grin complacently settled above all. Firstly how could I be dumb enough not to get it, secondly how could Birjees and Vicky plan out something like this, thirdly how could Hashim keep it in his tummy and not blurt it out to me, fourthly I spent a whole day with Aminah and Ayesha and never sniffed the fish, and fifthly I never knew they loved me that much :)

From there we went for bowling, and then home for moms yummy home made dinner, all my favs! Shes such a darling she’d even gotten the clothes I wanted to wear on my birthday stitched, and just the way I had in mind. We tried to watch a movie, however I think it’s high time we realize, it is just not possible for us to actually sit and watch a whole movie when we’re together. Come on real life is so much more fun ;)

Dad came back tonight. We’r leaving tomorrow, for a short holiday up north. Its been a long time, and holidays are the only time when you actually get to spend so much time together. It should be fun!

Shall remember the awesome feeling. It’s such a high when you’re stormed with a million messages and phone calls as the clock strikes midnight. I felt most pathetic to have been blessed with the forgetfulness I have, and not having able to do that for so many people. But yes, thankies! All you guys who bothered to send a hi, short birthday wish, to a call, to singing happy birthday on the phone! Haha...it meant a lot to me :)

My presents muahaha! ranged from totally my kinda clothes and perfumes to totally my kinda music ;) ....

I’m the most happy person right now!! I want to flyyy when there’s a purple sky! Swim in the deep blue sea! Dance on a tiger-Lillie like lil fawiees do! Hehe.. Actually I want to go jump off a cliff without a parachute tried to my back! Hah! :D