Freedom.......has a most peculiar taste to it

Everyone is still having their finals, making me the only restless soul jumping around the house. So after being glared and cursed at a million times, I decided to take my “noise” outside. The last time I stepped into my backyard would be on Hashim’s birthday when I was da official Dj (I seriously don’t know what eight year olds find so captivating in papichulo. So there, for those wondering....it wasn’t me!).

There is this huge tree there, right next to the little cheeko plant little Hashim again insisted on getting planted. It was around sunset. The tree stood gleaming in the golden light pouring through it, just a little on the top, accentuating the orange and mustard taking over the leaves as they burnt under the sun. Below, the palette blended from an olive to apple green, as the shade became thicker near the ground....It was just amazing.

I’ve always been quite a nature person, but it’s just been so long since I actually got time to breathe and even acknowledge the existence of er…trees. What a killer quarter. But you get such a high when you think of how much you’ve been doing. And not just sitting around wasting your life like many others you see around, rotting in their never-ending tales of gossip and slaughter.

However, now that I do have a break. I don’t know what to do! I’ve eaten at all the restaurants imaginable already. I’ve shopped like crazy. All the heart-to-heart updates done with....umm..so now what? Yes….I have realized. I am not one to sit at home. It is unbelievable how much I carved for a week of simple couch-potato-ing. But now that I have it. I cant do it, bas! ...Maybe its just the fact that it was a Sunday, there was no driver at home, my dad doesn’t trust the world with my driving just yet! *argh* and..hmmm..that should explain it. Now that I think of it. I know what I’m gonna do. Oh come on. How can anyone ever get sick of eating or shopping? ;) hehe

I used to think I’m psychic. But I’m loosing my telepathic powers. They weren’t working today....They cant abandon me. I am most certain, the power shall return. I await thee! *lightening crackling in the background*

Hey. I didn’t ask for it to rain.

Is it the clouds that rain on you? Or you who let it fall upon you and soak you until your just so drenched, you don’t miss being dry? What you were holding back, just washed away with it, all the shadows engulfing the spirit...

....Smell the freedom?

Rejoice the Stained Sky

Look up
At the sky
Stained with tears
A smirk acclaims
What the fading horizon fears

Do you not hear?
Must I have to resort to words dear?
Do you not see through my eyes?
Or, all spoken were lies?

Laugh out loud
Let the morphine feed on you
But inside your cold
In your vacuum of thoughts, alone

The zephyr exhales
The moist smell of mud
Yes, it rained

That serene stagnant current
After a heavy storm
When you can hear silence
See with you eyes closed
Taste the air
Spirits arose

And me...
I fly among broken feathers
Floating upon the winds
To be delivered to their destinies
Unpredictable seasons
Adrenaline rush
Anxious anticipation
Amber and crimson autumn leaves
Jade meadows
And peaches
...... ;)

Today was an awesome weather! May in Lahore, but weather like this...absolutely yum! Don’t you just love it when the wind tingles on your face, and blows through your hair?

I’ve noticed weather has a great influence on how I feel and behave. Such weather can either be extremely gloomy and switches you into contemplating mode, or like today a really high wow one, that would make you go totally crazy!

I actually went for my classes on time hehe....Sat outside the PDC on the little green recycled environemntal friendly bench under the tree with Ayesha, Sara, and some other friends, talking about absolutely everything under the blue-gray sky above us :)...Went to hotspot. Oh! Advice for those fond of the waffles, hidden beneath the depths of the extra chocolate syrup I made the guy pour over my scoup of praline, I discovered a new topping today, a small thick black strand of hair, incase you don't savour the taste I advise you scrutinize you food well before devouring what thy plate beholds.... Fixed my switching :D, now onto strumming *argh*, quite the pain it is I tell you, but has revealed yet another extremely funny, peculiar side of me....Its when someone says I suck or I truly feel so, that I just have to do it! And do it bloody well so the shying away cynical ear-to-ear grin can reappear :D

Hmmm...this sounds very different from my previous posts, but hell I just want to talk right now! Everyones asleep and no one interesting enough is online to be honoured with my aimless blabbing, (Maybe everyones studying :S ..*Blegh* no! not today!)....Oh and I want to sing! Really loud! Man I just cant get this wacko song out of my head...


I just cant belieeeEEeeve
It was all a lie!
No man in the moooOon
Just a big light in the sky!
I hear Disneyland...
Might lose Mickey mouse?!
In some giant! Hostile! corporate shake-up!
Tell me it’s a nightmare!
Please wake me up!!!
...Say it isn’t soooOo

I found a book of matches...
from someplace we’ve never been!
How come you hang the phone up?
The minute I walk in!
Last night I had this dream!
That I was losing you..
I woke up! in a cold sweat shaking!
Rescue me my heart is breaking!!

Say it isn’t soooOooo..tell me it’s not true!
Say it isn’t sooooOo..I believe in yoooOuu
Tell me it’s a lie! I don’t need no proof!
Say everything’s alright!..Couldn’t be, not you!
Say it isn’t sooooOo

Superman don’t fly...
They did it all with strings!
Elvis presley died!
They deep fried the king!!
Like some tacky! Cheesy! bathing beauty!
Dancing on the beach in a bad bad movie!!

Say it isn’t soooOo..Don’t give up on me!
Say it isn’t sooOOo..Don’t give up on you!
Get me through the night! ..We’ll make it through
Make everything alright! ..Couldn’t be, not you!
Say it isn’t soooOOooo
(Bon Jovi)

Hahaha.....shyte...mes gone insane...I think I should go stuff myself with some more thai noodles and go to sleep!

Hasta! ;)

"You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. For what are your possessions but things you keep and guard for fear you may need them tomorrow? ...And what is fear of need but need itself? Is not dread of thirst when your well is full, the thirst that is unquenchable? There are those who give little of the much which they have...And there are those who have little and give it all. These are the believers in life and the bounty of life, and their coffer is never empty."
-Kahlil Jibran


*Sigh*
Wow...
I love this guy!

Someone asked me today as to what I want to do with my life...I didn't know what to say...there is just so much I want to do. I think I shall try and make a list of things I want to do before I die, would be alotta fun! ...but for now, I think no one else could put it in better words ;)